Her birthday is Monday. 23. I was 27 years old, working full time in Washington DC, putting my husband through law school and taking care of my 10 week old baby....it was my day off and I was at a friends house having lunch..she made hot dogs for her toddler. I saw the hot dogs, smelled them and threw up. I couldn't think about or look at those hot dogs. I jokingly said the last time I felt this bad was when I was pregnant. haha.. Then I left but couldn't shake that thought. I stopped at a CVS and bought a home pregnancy test...that was way back then...and I had to wait until morning to take the test. I couldn't wait that long. When my husband came home I pounced. This was big news to him too.. he thought a product of my wild imagination... I was still nursing my 2 month old baby. We went to a clinic. The result was positive. The nurse gave me a brochure for planned parenthood and assured me the procedure would be simple and fast. My husband and I went home. I cried the whole way home. How was I possibly going to do this? I was hanging by a thread the way it was...and now another baby? Money was not nearly the worst worry. How would I ever be able to give this baby my love? I could not possibly love this baby as much as the baby I have now. I worried about dividing my love... I worried for 9 months. It was an uneventful but lousy 9 months of constant worry.....then the 18 hours of labor that all the books said would not happen because it was supposed to be much easier...it wasn't. Then transition...I am never ever doing this again...then the loud cry ...and then the baby. My husband lifted her up and put her to my breast. It was love at first sight. True never ending love. Without a doubt. I have never questioned my ability to love her , because there was never a need to. The whole miracle of love is the infiniteness of it! It doesn't get all used up on one child...just the opposite..it multiplies, expands, grows. She is now a fun, beautiful, talented, smart adult..and is as much a gift to us as she is to the world.